Allways just 2 b me!!!!!

So Just yesterday I told my Friend Velvet about this dream I've had.  I remember it very clearly, but didn't get to finish it because the dog woke me up barking at kids in the back yard.  I also have some very strong feelings about what it meant, but it scares me just a bit.  Velvet had some good feelings about it as well and she was even smiling by the time I finished, even though I was Slipping tears because it's meaning tears me in two.  After I went to see my friend this month, a place from my childhood began to call to me again.  Now after the dream on Wednesday morning it's been calling louder.  I'm beginning to wonder if the I'm in a slump in my job search is because I may be looking in the wrong place.

So here is the Dream.  For some odd reason I go to the front yard and notice one of my childhood neighbors is a real estate agent a couple of houses down.  Her younger brother is their too.  I go down to say hi to them and they decide to show me the house.  As we enter the house the floor plan changes and I actually like it a lot.  I start to wish that I had the means to purchase the house because I do like it, and there are only minor things wrong that I know can be fixed.  The brother makes the comment to me that it was a good thing they saved the house for me.  The statement confuses me because I know that I can't buy the house.  A few seconds later the Real estate one comes up and congratulates me,  Making me even more confused.  Then I hear a male voice from behind asking when I will be moving in, and arms wrap around me.  I look down at the arms and look up back to my family house and state that I will go up and pack my stuff.  Then I hear the voice from the next room telling me that I don't need to go and do that.  I insist as I turn around and see part of a back and legs in a business suit as the man goes to the bedrooms.  I turn to go out the front door and he states to me again that I don't need anything from my family home.  That all I need is already in the new house, and that if it isn't that we can buy it.  One more time I look out a side window and look up the road.  Having second thoughts about not packing anything from there.  The man comes behind me again and states his case again as I lean into him.  Then just as I'm going to agree, but have more to say.  The dog started barking at kids in the next yard and woke me up.

As stated before I have a pretty clear idea of what this meant, but I just wanted to share.  What kind of crazy dream have any of you guys had?

I am a crazy person at times I can't deny.  I'm a good girl, yes I am.  Except as of late. For some reason i can't seem to get past the minimum of things. I've been letting things get me down, and I've been worrying way to much about worries that aren't even mine.  It's a bad process I've been doing since I quit my job at Sandia resort and Casino.  I'm not sure why I let it grip me, but I can't seem to totally get rid of it.  It slipped in and ate at me slowly and now I seem to get a couple of weeks or days at a time where I can drop it and do what needs to be done.  Then I just go right back to the crazy part of worrying until I'm to tired or sick.  I do my applications for jobs on the computer, but I'm obviously not doing enough.

So I've decided I just need to put myself into the travel state of mind.  I like how I am when in this state of mind.  It's easy for me to not take insult easily, It's easier for me to be excited and ready for the day, and I tend to put myself in the moment of what is going on.  As a result of the last one I tend to see things differently and bit more detail than others think.  In fact I think that I've always seen things differently, may account for all the teasing and bulling when growing up.  Just never had the same interests as everyone else.

Even my friend Malibu and I were talking about the different details we notice.  Like her hating my white bra with a blue shirt.  I myself could have cared less, but wanted comfy shoes.  Right now though i seem to see or have no details what so ever. Just days, animals and people.  none of which I'm able to keep the best of relationships with.  I can't pinpoint what is wrong now, but I think that with this mind set change I could at least fix quite a few things.  It will take a few days, but I will get it done. Then we shall see what is next.  Positive that the Universe is talking to me.  Just can't seem to hear it right this minute.  With luck, this mind set change will help.

Well today I think that I may have finally gotten used to home again.  I got back on Thursday, but lets face it.  I was in the Bay Area for four days and by the second day my skin and sinuses were singing a happy song to the humidity.  It's not as much as in Florida, but California has more humidity than New Mexico that's for sure. 

I had to go spend some time with Malibu, just had too. Couldn't let more time slip by.

The end of this past year was way to crazy.  The last month seemed to be filled with everything coming to a head.  Kind of like everyone spent to much time ignoring something and it everyone all around the same time.  My parents had to do a quick run and turn around to Dallas to get the JEEP from my sister that was wrecked on Christmas day, Malibu had an issue, and so did several others.  It was hard for me with those who live far away. So on Jan 9th through Jan 12th I went to see one who is important to me, but lives far away.  I even got excited because I found out it's only a 2hr and 40min flight if I go into Oakland instead of San Francisco International.  So here are a few Pics from the trip.  I hope you enjoy them. 

Malibu Fried hanging ten at the Bulb.

Malibu Cunningham falling in love with a shop that is a hybrid of 'Stomps and threads', and 'Hot Topic' when it was worth spending money at.

The Bart was kinda cool. Bit confusing though when headed for the airport.

This was an awesome Sea Witch that someone made down at Albany Bulb.

Happy New Year!!!  I'm so very excited for this year because it feels like it will be my year. 2011 was a year of preparation, and others.  This year I feel inside that the goals I've been heading towards are getting done.  I have some small goals I hope to accomplish this year and I have some larger goals I hope will get if not half done, Than perhaps a third done this year.  The trick will be to keep going on them instead of letting things distract. 


This year will be a good year, and I can't wait to start it with a good intention rite.  I like to do one at the start of the year.  It helps a great deal to do my News years Resolutions this way.  I have spent a good part of today sorting through the thoughts in my head to decide which of all the resolutions I have will be the main important ones for this year.  I suppose I should do a reflective look at some point before the New week is done, but for now I thought I would just blurb. With a wish of A HAPPY NEW YEAR for everyone.  




5 things I'm grateful for today.........
1. It's a new year and time for a new faze in life.
2. I saw Family I haven't seen in 10yrs this week.
3. I get to see some of my neighbor's personal history on Friday at a telephone museum.
4. I've said it before and it's gone the opposite way, but this year is my year!!
5. I WILL get my things sorted and simplify this winter.