Happy New Year.

Mal.

Well here it is......January 1st 2013. A whole new year in the regular calender. I've spent since the Lunar new year trying to decide on some really good Resolutions. I know 2 months is a long time isn't it? The good ones take time. So after a rough day at work, and not making it to midnight last night, I'm getting my intents ready for the New Years rite to do before the end of the week. Which I'm going to have these three working resolutions in. As well as some intents for during the year to happen. All but one from last year seems to have manifested. I'm quite happy about that. So here are my resolutions which are working intents.

Pick up my Fitness Lifestyle again, During this year because of many different reasons I've let the Fitness lifestyle that I developed over the past 3 yrs to slip. I've lost the build up I made and gained 10 pounds. This year I'm going to fix that. Especially now that I have mostly caught up on my back log of things that developed during my time in school. I should be able to grocery shop for myself now and get back on track. The Social worker at the ER told me about this place http://www.skarsgardfarms.com/ They deliver from a near by year round farmers. So I can have good groceries delivered every Friday with out having to fight people in the store. It also looks about the same of what I would spend at sprouts of Trader Joes every week.

Stop depriving myself both physically and mentally, This one I've been very bad about over this and last year. Most was due to funds, some to tiredness and some to lack of motivation to do more than what I just need to do. I've gotten myself stuck in a 'I can't do this because of _____' mode. I don't like that. I end up just staying at home, forgoing the product that makes me feel better, or skipping the activity i want to do the most because of it. This year I'm going to work at find ways to do what I want to do most. Even if it means driving somewhere with $60.00 in my pocket and sleeping in my car at the Wal-Mart there. Missing a couple of things I really wanted to do because of not having the funds really took a toll on my internal well being. The disappointment was a heavy weight.

Give in to my inner creative child more, This one has happened do to perceived sacrifice. You know all the things and people that tell you to be a different person and way 'Just to be an adult'. Well I fell into that trap too. So now since I plan not to deprive. I'm going to use this resolution to help in achieving the second one. I always have ideas and storied in my head, but always to tiered to even try them. Then feel guilty or angry that I decided not to do it. So I aim to stop doing and listening to the comparison monster and do what I internally want to do.

So with this day being the title of this song for a New Year. this is what my main daily goals are to help with the larger goals.