Slowing down is good in more ways than one.

Mal.

Last time I wrote it was while I had all these crazy thoughts and realizations running through my head at way too fast a rate. Since then I have worked to slow everything down not only around me but in my head as well. It bothers me a bit that it took that visit for me to realize that I was still hanging on to a great deal of the Negativity and Issues I had from my old job. I had thought that I had left them at the door the night I walked out for the last time, and that everything I was going through were just another set of crazy problems from the universe.
In a way I think it was that the world is trying to break me of the Habits that I picked up from that place. I realized that I still worry about things that I shouldn't and make a Mountain out of a Molehill. The universe has shone me this by taking the issue I've been worring about and adding a whole new twist to it. Seriously there have been three things that the issue shouldn't have mattered, but it did and then the twist came and blew me around the loop several times. As a result I have learned that I need to readjust my radar for worry. I really only have three places that are my major world right now. School, Gym and Home. School and Gym are good places, both are helping my to build a better future.(Sadly not through instant gratification, but hey if it's not going to crumble it needs a good foundation right?) home is an interesting front though, I know that my parents probably don't mean to make me feel the way they do. They just want to help or push or whatever else. Unfortunatly, most of the time it just causes to much friction and frustration.
However now that I have slowed down, instead of trying to keep my head above the water, I hope to truely fix myself right up.
So no more focusing of the SHOULD, COULD, WOULD, CAN'T, or any other depresive states of mind. NO, no more.