Allways just 2 b me!!!!!

My costume on Friday,with the joker.

Well, it has taken me a bit to get to the blogging part of my trip last weekend, but unfortunetly since May it's been go, go, go. School has taken up the main majority of my time. The classes are getting herder and harder. I can now see why Doctors and Nurses take a few years to learn Anatomy. The small amount I'm being exposed to is mind blowing. I'm sure I've said it many times to many people, but let's get back to the main reason of the post shall we.

Everyone who has known me well as of late knows that The Labyrinth of Jareth Ball has taken a large part of my  interest over the past four years. The prospect of missing it this year really upset me. So I was very grateful to be able to at the Ball this year. It was much bigger and more amazing this year, And as usual I spent the whole time moving from space to space snapping pictures and seeing different things, I took some video. and will put it on the bottom of the post. Sadly though, because I dropped my camera on the concrete floor at the Con the weekend before it has a bit of trouble with the focus and blurs at times. Shawn Strider and his crew manage to always out do the previous year, and make it look easily done.

The biggest and most appreciated change this year was the food court that was added to the back. There was A Crape van and a BBQ van. I hope that next year there will be an additional two. One I would suggest if ever asked would be the Veg-it-up van. Then I would be in absolute haven while hopping from truck line to truck line. I may be a meat girl but the veggie patties that Veg-it-up makes taste like the real thing, and the mint julep lemonade is the best thing ever.

Hopefully this next year!!!

Also I think this trip just ended up adding to the self-revelations I have been receiving since ACE 2011, because this year for some reason, L.A. was not a scary place. I went on my own this time and drove all over the metro area from Downtown where I was staying to Hollywood, to Culver City, to Long beach, and back up to universal Studios. Heck, I even drove on the Freeways!! Something I wont do here in Albuquerque unless I really really need to, or headed out of town.  It was a very energizing trip, and one that I have been needing. I can't wait for next year, when Velvet rejoins the adventure. Hopefully by then I will have gained the courage to do this when we go to Universal Studios.

Well how about we get to some pictures and the video now?

Waiting in line.

My costume on Saturday, with Micheal.

A different ballroom from last year.

hmmmmmmmmmm.

I just had to get one of her with my umbrella.

Oh and The video...Almost forgot. But remeber some of it is going to lose focus.....Sorry.

I know that it was last weekend that I went to the LOJ ball. I came back on Sunday but have not had time to post. I still have some video to put together and upload to YouTube.  After I get that done I will write my big post with pics and the Vid. a whole 6 days later.  Bad on my end of things I know, but School is still taking a major amount of my time. probably will all the way to the end in October.

Post for sure tomoorow.

Well, today is the last day for the Albuquerque Comic Expo. I went for five hours on Friday and had a blast with Velvet. Then yesterday I went for a full twelve hours and it turned out to be a good day, even with the up and downs, the losing of things, dropping my camera, and ending up Solo at the event. I prefer to share the fun of these kinds of things but several things happened and I still found lots of ways to keep it all in good fun.  On the side here is a photo of me and the tenth doctor. and to the other side a head shot I took while waiting for the Star Trek Panel with Marina Sirtis and Levar Burton. That was a fun panel, just as much fun as the Nickolas Brendon one was. In fact the snoopy dance he did at the end was the best.  All three had great fun and banter with the audience the entire time.

I also saw half of the Robotech panel. I came in after Nickolas's panel and they were showing the new projects and showed CGI which looked like 2d drawing. Best thing ever!!!

The best part of the evening was the end. I went to the REPO!! the Genetic Opera shadow-cast. It rock in all ways possible. I have not been to a shadow cast since high school, and it was just as I remembered. well except this hunky dude in this movie is Terrance Zdunich and not Tim Curry. Also he wears no heels, he just sells blue goo from dead people's noses.  While waiting for the shadow cast to set up and sell their participant bags, I got to hear the stories of a couple of guys that moved here from New York City and were in the goth scene there in the 90's It was cool to hear of all the places and sad that most of them are now boutique stores or pulled down for condo's I had great fun and some interesting self revelations.

Next weekend I go to Los Angeles for the LOJ ball, and will have pics of that too. Can't wait to see what happens next weekend when I go home to Sypher. For now how about some others pics.

Here is my friend Velvet in her alternate persona.(Majora's mask/ Skull Kid)

Spiderman/Pan he was a cool dude. Very friendly and had the screwdriver I needed back at the booth he worked. In fact all the guys at the DC Entertainment booth were the coolest.

V.V. and some of the DewBack Ridge 501st guys

The skirt Harley. I want to do the Pant suit Harley from this video game soon.

part of the Shadow cast for REPO!!!!

Mothra

The fourth Dr. and Sarah Jane.

Some bats of some kind.

Grell from black butler.

Another pan

So I'm going to get a half of a vacation right before I go to California for the ball. YAY!!!! My sister has decided to move to Texas with her guy. So during the last week of June everyone who does not have school is pitching in to help with the move here. Well I have school, so it will be me and the animals for a week or so. I will get to try and get ahead a bit in the next class before I leave. If the homework that I had over the past two weekends is any indication of how it will be for the next three classes. I wont be able to do two chapters (18 hrs.) of homework that weekend. Wont want to either. 


I wasn't quite sure what I had signed up for, but if I can get through this; I will know that I have regained a bit of my old self.  Pre Sandia Casino Malibu was a strong chick in my opinion, there was lots of things I did and accomplished by the seat of my pants. Never worried about how it would turn out, just did what was necessary and moved it all forward as best as I could. I really want to get back to that point. It's just taking much longer than I would like or want. 


However, I do feel that getting through this stage in school is a step closer to that. Wish me luck please? 


P.S. On the 25th of this month I will be going to the ABQ Comic Expo down at the Convention center. I promise to take lots of pics and to blog.

So I've been making myself feel better by accepting and saying that it's time to go with the flow of what is happening in my life, as well as setting some goals.  So if I've been doing that, why can't I let go of the fear and just fully dive in? I've gone over it, analyzed it, accepted it, and have been dominating it. I mean come on 4.0 GPA, but I still have issues when I'm not on that track. I really need to find a place to go to after I get home from the gym to do homework.  It's been hard to get it done how I want to within this house, and I have no idea why. In fact I'm barley going to start this weekends homework in about an hour. 


Every time I feel that I'm ready and that I'm going to let go of this bank I'm clinging to in this river, it just doesn't happen. I keep getting snagged, and the fear, shame and uneasiness set in again. Crazy thing is that I know that it isn't mine, not my families, and Yet it comes from somewhere. Wish that I could pinpoint where these feelings are coming from. I'm so tired of fighting and pushing against these feelings. I don't know how the got such a strong hold on me, but figuring out how to stop them from seeping back in has been a really hard thing.


I need to stop hurting myself and stick to my promises and word on all these decisions. More than one person has told me that a person goes through uneasiness and reinvents a part of themselves every 10 years or so.  As a result I don't feel bad about school and going for a new career, but the time it takes and the swirl around it can send my into one crazy tail spin.  I have an Idea to try to see if I can stop from exhausting myself just from stress. that way I can be the person I need to be. After all If I want to be able to take care of others I need to be in the proper mind set and Health, Right??